Still fresh in my mind, about 4 and a half years ago. This is when I fill in the UPU's application form to apply for University. There's a few column in which I have to choose the major which I desire the most. Somehow somewhat, I don't know what was I thinking at that time when I choose "Law" as my first choice. Is it because I'm still immature at that particular time to make the utmost deliberation? or is it because this is what I really desire in my life?
Sometimes, I feel so miserable thinking about this whole situation. It is full of indecisiveness, when you are doubting what you are doing and feels like you are taking the wrong courses of action. Maybe it is just my inner feelings and thoughts...I guess. I cannot slip the time. Facing the future is most important.
Being a lawyer needs skills in presenting in front of the audience, speaking fluently, full of dedication, progressive,brilliant in arguing and defending and etc. As time goes by, I found out that I'm not really that type of person especially when I got very low marks in my mooting subject. Changes have to be made on myself. Honestly, I believe that I can push myself to be such person with a good quality. But until this time, I haven't taken any action to improve myself of having such skills. I only keep asking myself:
Can I be a lawyer? Do I really want to be a lawyer? Can I handle being a lawyer? Oh no, I want to do something else than being a lawyer. Lawyer's life sucks...Why can't I be a photographer.hahahaha..kidding! arghhhh!
OMG.I'm neglecting my own future by doing so. I'm afraid of my own shadow. Supposedly, I have to dig my passion in this field.
Actions have to be taken. The year 2010 will come and bring me a new spirit to figure out who I am, and what I have been destined to be. Perhaps after finishing LLB, then I'll know what I want in my life..Don't worry, I'll end my misery!!! We'll see!! :)
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