The Boring 'me'..

Tonight is the New Year eve celebration....What do I do? Stay at home...in front of my laptop..posting this blog...boringly..caught by emotional disorder..caused by the 'ptptn' form..and some people whom annoyed me just now..

Imagine myself standing in the crowd of people..holding hands with my dear..staring at the sky full of beautiful fireworks.. It is a dream come true :) Nothing you can see from my face,except the wonderful smile I give to every people looking at me...Enjoying the beautiful moment..Appreciating every seconds...People screaming "happy new year" happily...he screams...and I scream too.. The stars shine bright tonight, not like usual. The stars are also celebrating the night...Feeling myself like floating in the air, reaching the stars...Through the night..The night air sweep into my face smoothly..All I can hear is the popping sounds of fireworks......

Then all of sudden,all the sounds gone....It just fade away....I opened my eyes..Here I am..again..in my bedroom..in front of my laptop...Realizing that it's just a dream..that will never come true....

Perhaps..I should go to bed earlier...and pretending like nothing happened tomorrow morning...

T_T

RUN

I'll sing it one last time for you...

Then we really have to go..

You've been the only thing that's right..

In all I've done...

And I can barely look at you...

But every single time I do..

I know we'll make it anywhere...

Away from here...

To think I might not see those eyes..

Makes it so hard not to cry..

And as we say our long goodbyes...

I nearly do....

Light up, light up...

As if you have a choice...

Even if you cannot here my voice...

I'll be right beside you dear...

Louder, louder...

And we'll run for our lives...

I can hardly speak, I understand...

Why u can't raise your voice to say....

How does it feel?

I'm not afraid of anything,

I just need to know that I can breath,

I dont need much of anything,

But suddenly........

I'm small and the world is big,

All around me is fast moving,

Surrounded by so many things,

But suddenly.......

How does it feel.. to be a different from me,

Are we the same? How does it feel?

Ntah ape2

Some people are just "ntah ape2"

I hate those people..

Dah lama pendam...

But today, I can't hold it any longer..

Get out from my life!

*I'm being too emo*

WELCOME 2010

babai 2009.....................

2009...too many memories..:) byk sgt mende yang jadi 2009 nie..yg manis,yg masam,yg terindah,yg teristimewa :P I met mt dear...hehe.He's different, too many barriers, too many hiccups and no break up...yet he's the special one and always in my heart <3

nak cerita semue ke?? hurm...x payahlaa...

Yg best jugak....sy telah bejaye grad in 2009 dgn berjayanye!!!! yeah.i'm proud of ma self...

thanks Allah :) Penat belajar.4 tahun stgh memakse diri bgn tiap utk pegi class..kene malu dpn lecturer, kene naek turun bas sekejap..kene pnjt bukit uitm..kene tahan pak gad pastu lari..ponteng kelas.kire bape hari da ponteng class..study utk exam mcm org gile..kire duet ptptn yg asek x pernah cukup..buat muke tebal mitak duet kt mama.....mcm2 lagilah....

Tp x sempat nak rase kemerdekaan sejati, dah dpt offer sambung honors.so nak xnak kene pergi gak.Demi masa depan yg cemerlang,gemilang dan terbilang...eceh..

tahun 2009......too many cheers,too many tears also.If tadah tears for 2009 nie,cukop utk buat kolam udang..Rase diri mcm x matured 2009nie.so,2010 nak matured sketlahh..da tue da...23 yrs old maaa....

yg paleng sedih tahun 2009 ni..of cosla...sgt x best sbb mama saket.Doctor diagnosed tumor kt brain n face. :( my life totally change.upside down....jage mama kat hospital time exam..Mama masuk operation room hall,aku masuk exam hall..tension...Tapi bebaloi paper tu dpt A.hihi...Harap 2010 nie,mama sgt sihat sprti biasa..She can do it..i know..

Tahun 2009 gak ada beberapa mslh peribadi yg x syok nak ceritekan kat sini..

JENJENJENGG....2010!!!

Ye,2010...sy masuk honors..pengalaman mengerikan bakal menanti.da byk kali cerita psl honors dlm blog nie...Nanti dah masuk nanti kita cerita laen ok.

Azam??? i dont know..x pernah azam2..tp nak 'pasang' jela azam.Who knows,boleh encourage myself ker..

1) study dgn bgs...get great results..4 flat every sem.eceh.poyos.

2) jadi lawyer kot at the end of the year...or magistrate..or whomsoever God decides me to be.

3) become a great child..towards my parents and family

4) become a good girlfriend.hahhaa..I know I always give him trouble..Sorry syg..

5) become a good muslim..insyaAllah...

6) become a good photographer (haha..impian tertanam)

7) become a bad grand daughter.dont ask me why ;p

8)....ape lagi yeh...in short,sumenye jadi baik2 belaka la...hijrah diri :)

Yeah...for the first time in my 22 years of life, sy list kan azam.hehehe...

Nak doa sikit.....

"Ya Allah yg maha pengampun lagi penyayang,Kau ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku...Kau tunjukkanlah jalan kebenaran bg ku, Kau limpahkanlah rezeki mu ke atasku dan seluruh hambamu, berkatilah hidup kami dan jadikanlah kami hamba yg beriman kepadamu"

Amin.....

Berdebar -debar menanti kedatangan tahun baru........

Photo yg paling sy suke..

Photog : Chopi Echa...

Tanx for this wonderfull photo u've made...

Pulau Ketam Photowalk yang Cool :)

27 Disember bersamaan hari Ahad, Shazli Shots dan Butik Tee telah menganjurkan aktiviti photowalk bertempat di Pulau Ketam, Klang. Photowalk ni mmg cool dan happening. Ramai peserta yang hadir termasuklah photographer2 dan model2. Acara ni boleh dikatakan acara penutup aktiviti tahunan bagi photographer2 yang turut serta. Memang seronok aktiviti photowalk ni sbb boleh belajar mengambil gambar sambil berkenalan dgn photographer lain dan melawat Pulau Ketam. Kenderaan utama di Pulau Ketam ialah basikal. Jadi, bagi yang lama tak mengayuh basikal, agak sakit pinggang dibuatnya. Apa-apa pun event ni mmg a big success!! terima kasih organizer. Banyak gambar2 cantik yang telah dihasilkan oleh photographer2 yg dtg. But for me, I'm just a beginner..so x byk captured gmbr cun2. Adela sikit2...

Terima kasih yang tak terhingga kepada photog2 yang sudi ambil gmbr sy :))

from eba photography :)

From Aris ramly.candid lawak :

Agak susah bagi kami nak balance kan basikal ni.Maklumlah,tayar agak kempis. Byk kali juga nak terjatuh...:) thanks Aris Ramly :)

From Fad Fadhil :)

Yang ini semua hasil tangan sendiri. Baru nak belajar capture...

Penduduk asli

model : Raihanah

Model : Tiniey Tajuddin

aksi-aksi sniper at Pulau Ketam

model

Hope acara sebegini akan selalu diadakan sebab memang best!!!!

bubye outing 2009... :)

Dilemma of a Petite Girl

Today is my shopping spree day. Mission? Looking for my black and white uniform for the LLB course. Woke up at 8.45am..hehe. A little bit late, but a text message from my dad wakes me up...He knew his daughter will surely still asleep. Pak Ngah and Mak Ngah suddenly popped out in front of the door. They came to visit mama. My gosh, what a shame. I'm still in my pajama... *sigh** I brushed my teeth, changed my pajama and served them with tea and roti canai..

10.45 am : As soon as Pak Ngah and Mak Ngah went back, I rushed to the KTM station. I promised my dear to meet him today at Kepong Sentral. It's Christmas' holiday, so the train was packed and there's no hope I'm gonna find a seat for me. In the journey, I looked at the people around....Thinking..hmmm,so many races..Chinese, Indian and Malay..Errr,yet there were some unrecognized 'races' also in that train. Well, I bet you guys understand. Our generous country had been flooded with so many outsiders...you named it..Indonesian?Nigerian? hurrmmm..?Whatever..

Yeay, finally I reached Kepong Sentral, got into his car and went for lunch.After that, we went to One Utama. Looking for my white formal long sleeve shirt. This search was a long one, so difficult to find my size : XS ... I always have problem in finding the right size for me...arggh. I'm so in dilemma..Why they made big clothes. Have some consideration laa...Hehe.Please produce more clothes in XS' size. My uncle who had visited Korea told me that in Korea, it is difficult for ladies to find XXL, XL and L sizes. The clothes there we're usually produced in small sizes..good huh?

Some people don't understand me. They see me as being too choosy in buying clothes. It is not the matter of being fussy or choosy, but wearing clothes in my actual size make me feel neat and tidy...and most important, I feel confident!

After so many stores we entered, finally, I got 2 shirts in my size. :) cheap one and affordable..yeay!! But I was unable to find slacks that suit me. Again,they we're all oversized for me.. A bit disappointed but it's okay, I'll find the slacks later..I think I know where should I go...........mission : half accomplished!

TAAADAAA......!! sangat muat baju ni! :) kan elok tue.x oversize n nmpk kemas kan?